Posted from my blog on Facebook
"I know it hasn't been a week since I shut my channel down, I was talking to some close friends of mine, about what I did, and why, and we talked about the whole deal, and I have come to realize, that I fucked up.
I can also hear it now. I TOLD YOU SO, I FUCKING TOLD YOU, lol, your right, you are exactly right, and I was a dumb fuck from the beginning.
I can't really make any excuses to why I shut my channel down, I could say that it was because I had a lot of stress, and my mind was overloaded with a lot of things, other projects that were non gaming, and offline stuff. I just wasn't thinking.
Plus I think I pushed myself to do reviews way to hard. It was suppose to be fun, and not a priority. Hell I had 15 review scripts done, and all I needed to do was record footage, and throw it together. Why I did that, I don't know, it was stupid, really fucking stupid.
So, I owe everyone an apology, pure and simple, I mean I had close to 3700 subscribers, and I threw that all away. That took 3 years to get. I know a lot of people are pissed off, and hate my guts right now, and I totally agree, if I was in your shoes I would feel the same way.
I have been debating the day or so, on what I am going to do. I could just leave it at this, and move on, or I can create another new account, and start from scratch, and start all over again. I know some will want that, and I know some will hate that, I haven't come to a 100% conclusion on this yet.
If I do come back, of course I am going to have to make a video similar to this blog, for those that don't follow me on Facebook, and all the gaming forums/sites I post at, and I am not expecting all to forgive me, I am only human, and we all make mistakes, and this time I made a real stupid one."
As for my old reviews and videos, before anyone asks, those are gone, completely gone. I didn't save them for backups, so it will be a completely fresh start. As for when I will release videos. It will be when I see fit, it might be every week, every 2 weeks, maybe a couple a week, it all depends. I want to make it fun again, that is the point of this, having fun.
That is, if I decide to create a new account. I need to think about this.
Once again, I apologize for this dumb fuck move. I don't expect everyone to forgive.
Thanks,
Heavy Metal Gamer
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